Wednesday, 31 July 2013

Again the home is empty!

The day before you came, our home was empty. The day you left us, our home and hearts are empty!!

Your cry was filled as a soothing tune in nook and corner of our home, your little feet was struggling to carry those heavy golden anklets.  Your Barbie doll looks, your big eyes, your tender palms, words fall short to describe you my lovely daughter.

The joy me and your mother shared when we brought you home is inexplicable. Each sentence was started and ended with you in it. Your naughtiness, the way you made us run around you. How much should I cry to get back those irreplaceable moments? You just took all those and much more awaited happiness in just a blink. What made you think that we deserve this? Oh dear, oh dear!!

Your mother is thrown apart today. How will I console her? What will I console her as, when for sure I know you are not coming back to us? What else does she need apart from you in her life? There is no hope that I can build in her. I wish you understood the situation I am in. Being a man doesn't mean I am strong enough to handle this. Oh dear, oh dear!!

Hope you are seeing us beg for an answer, look at our thirst to know about your hard decision. I want to steal that moment of haste. I want to go back and give a solution for that question which made you end your life. Time has flown and will never come back. Though we dint give birth to you, we thought of a life only with you. Oh dear, Oh dear!!

As parents we always wish you the best wherever you are. Waiting for the day which answers your misery. Only thing we know is to hold on to your memory. Rest in peace you beautiful soul. Oh dear, Oh dear!!

Again the home is empty, again our hearts are empty!!

PS: Dedicated to all those who are suffering because of teen suicides, without even knowing the reason for their loved ones death.

We hardly get a life filled with happiness. Live life to the fullest. Explore, Enjoy and Challenge life. Never kill it yourself.

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Saturday, 29 June 2013

Do you feel the same???

It is a strange feeling; I am portraying almost all the emotions on the emoticons list of facebook status bar. Generally, I am a crazy kid but imagine with all these emotions put together, who can handle me? Okay, Okay, I am coming to the reason behind it.

The reason for the madness inside me is a Man*(* I am not a Men hating woman and this post is not about cribbing about Men) this is about Love, Love this Man gave me. And the reason behind all these intolerable madness is the feeling of Love in me. Yes!!! I am bitten by a bug called Love and tell me who can survive this?  I am yet to find an answer.

I am pampered like a baby, I get scolding’s for my naughtiness, he builds strength in me; he is the only one I can remember when I am really afraid to step ahead with a decision. Basically, he taught me what Love is!!!

There were days when I had bad mood swings because of which my voice was on par with the roof but a glance of his calm eyes made me melt. When I was ill he was my doctor and was my medication, when I was not sleepy his lullaby was my sleeping pill, this makes me wish him on a Mother’s day for his pure and motherly heart. Basically, he is my world!!!

There are many instances of me playing pranks and irritating others for which he punished me and made me learn right things. I hate underestimating myself, but though he is in that heights which I cannot reach even when I try my heart out, he is so simple and makes me feel I own him. Basically, he is everything to me!!!

Suddenly today, I miss this Man. I know how terrible feeling it is, to miss the one whom you compare with Divine, without whom you can’t even imagine a second, without whom you feel all other fantasies in world are not yours. Am I the only one fallen for this magical world called love? Or, Do you feel the same towards anyone?

I proudly say my prince charming is one in million. Hope you have also got the same kind of person in your lives too. It might be your Father, Brother, Husband or your close friend. Find, treasure and lock them in your love. Never let them go.
  • ·        fight and Forget
  • ·        argue and Laugh
  • ·        be sad and Forgive.

Enjoy being loved, Love unconditionally. What goes around comes around.

Wednesday, 1 May 2013

A colourful world untouched!!!

World tours, cars, jewellery’s, eateries and the count goes on. Dreams are many; we all live to fulfil one or the other dreams each day and aiming to accomplish such dreams, are no selfishness.

I feel blessed as I belong to the pool of dreamers but somewhere in the corner of my thoughts, I had a blockage.

Eyes are the witness of what’s happening around. I was very proud of being praised to have beautiful eyes; until one day when I realised that’s not it.

Everything is not seen, it’s felt too- A bright day in my life, I decided to pledge my eyes. Samarthanam is an amazing organisation ( which dragged me towards its noble deed. A melodious song invited me in. I turned to witness all the children and staff of samarthanam sing it with their heart and soul. They all were physically challenged but they were capable to challenge the challenge.

Learning is never-ending; it’s just learnt in different times and from different set of people- A staff of samarthanam guided me to take the stairs to submit my pledge form. He told a girl nearby to instruct me the way. This girl had lost her eyes since birth and she dint even have an idea how the stairs looked. With a happy face she asked me to take 8 steps, then turn right; take 4 steps, towards your left you find the office room. I was touched and tears rolled down, but only go was to accept the fact and do the good what I could do.

A colourful world untouched- Being thanked for pledging my eyes by all the kids who were desperate to see the world through my eyes, I slipped into a thought, a world of theirs which is unadulterated,  which had never seen violence. I wanted this world to be like that in real, which becomes an irony or this cannot be thought in the wildest of dreams too. Its better that few things are left untouched.

Feel and Sense- Many things in life are felt or sensed and are less witnessed. The joy in holding in your loved one’s hand, the joy in feeling the tender kiss on your forehead when you are heavy hearted, the joy in hugging your dearies, the joy you see when you make someone smile cannot be measured. Take a moment and feel yourself. Be happy for being blessed for whatever you have and thank almighty for all those joy he has given you till date and ask him for more such joy in the future.

I acknowledge what Helen Keller said- It is a terrible thing to see and have no vision. Have an eye which has a vision to dream big and to achieve what you have dreamt.

Wednesday, 13 March 2013

I have a life too….

Getting married? Let’s consider it a Yes!! So, what thought flashes you when you think about this? Two people one life, bonding for life, Togetherness, Love, excitement and more? I have the same thoughts too. 

I was really excited when my wedding was fixed. Life started changing a bit and the change was good. I became we, single cup of coffee became 1 by 2 and a sense of share came in, without even noticing. I started enjoying this change in me.

From my childhood till date, I have been a person who welcomes new in life. I like making friends; I talk to lot of people unknown to me. So, getting adjusted to my new life was not so difficult. Still, being a girl who is brought up very independently I faced many funny hurdles which I tackled in a clever way. So ladies, fasten your seat belts to hear my way of tackling things, this might help many of you out there reading this post!!! If these ideas of mine work out for you, then you can make your valuable contribution to my fund. (Contribution accepted in the form of your joy of reading only).

Let me first begin with few thumb rules which I follow:
Never say no to what others tell. (means, do whatever you want to do, after all its your life)
There are many who talk nonsense. (means, act deaf, your skills will improve)
There will be advices and suggestions from many. ( means, be selfish, take only those which helps you)
Try not to bother your guy with all the nonsense you are facing. (means, he is used to these kind of nonsense and he cannot make out any difference. Suffer in silence and learn dealing with it)

The Requisitions:

1. Pre wedding requisitions: These are the days where you will have to accept maximum requests from many, be prepared. It starts from head and never think toe is the ending point!! The list goes on and on. Few of the requests I got were: Pierce your nose; I am okay you wearing whatever you want, BUT……, following this god would seem better than following the one you are following now, you look good when your hair is tied etc. ( Beware: All these requests are meant to be treated as ORDERS). Listening was the only way out for me and I heard voices in my mind answering like this. 

HELLO, I am planning to pierce my navel!!
Thank god, I am wearing!! 
I am Spiritual, not Religious!!
I have been looking myself since I was born; I know what looks better on me!!

Smiling at all the voice-overs in my head, I nodded for all the requisitions and till date I follow my thumb rule- Listen to what others say!! Do, whatever you wana do, after all it’s your life.

2. Post wedding requisitions: These are those orders which you will be forced to follow. But, try and workout to minimize your efforts in following these. Few out of many requests (orders) which were enforced on me were: Try and visit all the relatives whenever you find time, Wear the attire what I tell, early to bed and early to rise etc. Again, listening was the only way out for me and I still hear lots of voices in my mind answering like this.

I get only two days in a week, I prefer spending it for myself. I don’t like spoiling others time too; even they have the same amount of time what I have.
Again, thank god, I am wearing something.
Even I am a workaholic like the other person with me. When you understand him, understand me.

Again I continued smiling and till now I follow my thumb rule- Listen to what others say!! Do, whatever you wana do, after all it’s your life and the requests/ orders have never stopped and it will never be!! The more requests/ orders I get, the more I improve my skills and patience.

Few things before I conclude:

I thank all those who improved my skills and patience by requesting/ ordering me. Don’t worry, I’ll never change.
The attitude of mine is not negative towards those who tell me something. I am always open for new and good learning’s. 

I conclude with lots of smiles, positive attitude and I am always welcome for more ad-hoc requests/ orders. But, please keep in mind, when I don’t bother you, don’t bother me!! Coz, I have a life too…..

Monday, 4 March 2013

A Silent Journey

I bustled to a nearby crowd and exclaimed!! Excuse me, is this where the Bus stops…?? After I got a satisfying nod from the crowd, I settled down.  I looked all around and realised, oh dear!! How well I have become a slave of luxury. To be precise, after my 10th Class I had never travelled in a bus. I dint know how many bus routes had changed and how many buses itself changed. I can never forget the days when me and my friend walked hand in hand till the bus stop and felt sad to part from there for our respective homes daily…

I dint know when luxury started bossing me or I have no idea when all this fun of travelling in a public transport ended. The reasons might be many- tuitions, college, traffic, time management and many more but I am not proud to say I don’t use public transport any-more  This day in my life bought me back all those lovely memories and courtesy for the same is my bike which broke down this morning.

  • A silent speech which imprinted the word “Love”- As I was waiting for the bus to come and as my creative thirst was looking for water called a story, I saw a couple beside me, they were talking non-stop but no one else in the crowd were annoyed or I guess, no one knew that there were strong conversation going on between them. I felt so sorry to see the couple who were deaf and dumb and couldn’t shout out their love. Though I couldn’t get to know all that they were discussing, the shyness in her, showed the colours of their love.  They departed as their bus arrived and this situation made me think that, though we are blessed with speech sometimes we never express what we want to express to someone who you really love. We unknowingly hurt them without expressing our true feelings.  People, make a point to express what you really feel… Many things could be sorted out and many more surprises will be on your way when you express…
  • A silent nod which filled my stomach- With a “lesson learnt” feeling, I rushed in to the packed bus, a while later I managed to grab a seat. A famous saying says “Hunger can make you do anything on earth”. I was damn hungry and I knew the travel time would be too much to tolerate the devil inside my stomach.  Unfortunately my bag was empty. I was feeling terribly hungry. God!! A fragrance of a cookie bag hit my nose (you can imagine cheese fragrance hitting jerry’s nose in Tom and Jerry) and this was too tempting. I am a kid who is really scared and was trained not to ask or take food from strangers. That fear in me made me tolerate for a while but NO, I could not. As I turned towards the cookie bag and the way I was staring it by my killer looks my tolerance level decreased and I suddenly begged can I have cookies please??? At the same time, seeing my hunger popping out of my eyes she asked, please have some cookies!! Without much ado, I grabbed a few cookies and ate like crazy. Once my stomach was filled, we cared to introduce ourselves and I got an amazing person as a friend. I still owe you much more than cookies Anusha!! “Hunger made me beg” but I earned a true caring hand which always stays with me for life. Always share, Sharing is caring.

That’s how mesmerizing my day was. I saw a silent love, I saw a caring hand, I could speak to a special friend on phone for long hours, for that matter I could write this piece only because this travel made me concentrate on many such minute things which is impossible when I ride. Coz, only thing I concentrate when I am riding is the way I am going and my co-riders who often scare me.

Thank god my bike broke down or else, I would have never seen such a delightful day.

Thursday, 3 January 2013

My Sponsored Wedding!!!

“If you’re born poor, it’s not your mistake. But if you die poor, it’s your mistake" – Bill Gates.

This saying of Mr. Gates always haunted me. I know few facts about me, which are difficult to modify. “I know I am Poor, I know my parents cannot afford a grand wedding for me, I know I am raised well not to find bad shortcuts to make quick money.” “I also know that I am extremely CREATIVE.”

Before reaching conclusion, let me draw my understanding of marriage. We all know marriage in our lives is a one-time thing (* excluding few immature, valid reasons). Marriage for me is an event which is part of my life and not a life in itself. By marriage, I mean as a celebration as I invite new lives in my life and get invited by others in their lives. 

In the view of national interest I insisted myself to get married simple and invite everyone over a single lunch or dinner.  Strong oppositions came from everyone in and around the family. Fact again, is I am weak to fight them.  But, to cut down my parent’s burden, I convinced everyone with my creativeness. Though opposition was constant, I had to execute the idea for my own reasons.

Alone I was sipping my chai at the office pantry and was a little blue thinking about my current situation. I am the only earner in my family and I have thousand things to pay at the month end which haunts me from month beginning. My parents were worried as their little girl was growing older and not getting settled with a companion. They were also worried about people talking ill about me as I was unmarried.

Suddenly my eyes struck into a hording outside which said “Artistic-I Performance hall Sponsors for your Artistic performances, all enthusiasts can register.” Artistic- I is a new performance hall which is open down town and it was inviting performers for whom they provided hall for free as its promotion activity. I slipped into my creative basket and thought “Marriage = Performance, Me and others involved are the performers”. Why can’t I get my marriage sponsored??

This bug hit me so hard that I could not stop thinking about it day in and out. Finally, the day came where I was all set with the ingredients of marriage such as Groom (main ingredient) his family and mine.  My parents accepted for all the preparations that had to be done for a marriage. Here I enter the war field and say “I have an Idea and I want you folks to accept it. This should be easy for you to accept as I have already spoken to the groom’s side and they are okay with it. I throw a bomb and it’s named as “My Sponsored Wedding”.”  My parents were cool enough as my in-laws gave a green signal to my idea.

short-listed necessities for the marriage and searched for a potential sponsor who is new in the market.

  1. Marriage Hall- Mangal Mantap, is a new convention centre which is placed in a remote place of the city. The hall is very good but did not get exposed due to location constraint. I spoke to the owner and convinced him to Sponsor one wedding of mine which can lead to many and I guaranteed of advertising it. So, Place for my marriage- Check 
  2.  Decoration- Fragrance, is a new decorator in the city and fortunately my very close friend. She accepted to sponsor all the decorations (such as flowers, pendals etc) as she was eager to jump into the market with easy advertising. So, Decoration for my marriage- Check
  3. Event Coordination- WE, an event management company were looking for a potential wedding to kick start their business. For my good fate I bumped into these people and shot my idea to them. They were okay to sponsor my Makeup, organise a performance in sangeet ceremony and coordinate all the important marriage events. So, Event Coordination for my marriage- Check
  4.  Jewellery, Clothing- All Mart, is a new store in the market which has everything necessary for marriage such as clothing, jewellery, groceries etc. I spoke to the chairperson of the store and managed for the sponsorship of the above said with the assurance of easy and effective advertisement.So, wardrobe for my marriage- Check
  5. Food- People might forget all the events in a marriage but food is the one thing which is always remembered. Swad, is a caterer who is new in town and I convinced him to put his first effort in my marriage. It’s generally believed that food should be served in a wedding to all for which we are blessed. So, I accepted to share this part where in I paid the expenses of the labourers. So, food for my marriage- Check
This covers almost all important things required for a good marriage. Hello, where did I forget   Photography..?? Okay, this was not sponsored, but all my friends gifted me the photography for the wedding. I don’t know whether to treat this as a sponsorship. (Inputs are welcome.)

And this is how “My Sponsored Wedding” concludes with a grand success. My creative head came to my rescue and bought joy to me and people around.
It’s now time to thank all the sponsors: and a big banner outside awaits which says-

“I Thank, ‘Mangal Mantap’ for their beautiful wedding space, ‘Fragrance’ for their extraordinary decorations, ‘WE’ for their splendid and energetic event coordination, ‘All Mart’ for their marvellous and exquisite collections in clothing, Jewellery etc. ‘Swad’ for their delicious food.
Without you guys I would have never seen this day.”

PS: The story and all the ideas above are imaginary; people are welcome to use this idea if found helpful.
I Thank my cousin Navya, for sharing the same thought as mine in this idea.

I came across a blog where much greater live ideas were expressed. Have a look and enjoy. Nice thought by “”